Two week wait

2 week wait

Waiting,
Feeling,
Thinking,
An unpleasant mixture of hopes and fears.

Waiting,
Feeling,
Thinking,
Another hour survived.
Suppressed and secretive joy at lasting an entire day.
Persistent and noxious weed like thoughts of "what if"
Attempting to pervade,
To infiltrate.

A day spent inexhaustibly spraying
The persistent creepers.
Clear recollections of the last time this path was travelled,
A dark pit of lost dreams lies ahead.
Although one more hour has just passed..
Maybe...
What if...

Waiting,
Feeling,
Overthinking.


2 week wait- part 2
The day's armour falls to the floor,
Removing with it
the mask
that has provided refuge
through a day of
emotionless meetings.
The steaming hot water
no defence
against the
cold,
lonely,
hollowness
from within.

Thoughts
of the possibility
of NEVER
leave a crumpled mess
upon the shower floor.

No more waiting
No more feeling.